Hello codeforces,
Its been almost a 2 years on this platform for me and I'm still not a consistent purple. I've solved around 100 problems >=1900 rating but i still am not able to stay in cm(even with all this 'inflation'). Yesterday was my good chance to finally go deep into cm but i screwed it up as usual not even reaching cm. It was extremely depressing and i cried for an hour at home and even started feeling suicidal again :(
Can anyone suggest any ways of coping with these failures? I've managed well until now but yesterday was tough. Apart from that can anyone suggest why i may be choking in these contests?
Sorry for asking for help through such a way.
Can anyone suggest any ways of coping with these failures?
Don't see rating as a measure of your skill or happiness. Rather see, how many problems you have solved, as a measure of your happiness.For example your goal can be :- I have to solve 1000 problems this year above my current rating rather than I have to reach 2100 this year.
Can anyone suggest why i may be choking in these contests?
Everyone has their bad days and good days.Rating is only a rough estimate of your skills.It may be the case that you lost a lot of rating points in a contest because of lack of concentration or some hard to debug errors, but deep down you know, you are much better. Also it can be the case, that you gained a lot of rating points in a contest but deep down you know, you don't deserve that rating.I am also not able to perform good from past three contests, but i don't get depressed much because i know what my actual goal is. :) Seeing a high rating in your profile gives a lot of confidence but seeing a steep down curve gives a lot of depression too. That's why if i am able to solve 3-4 problems in a day, i feel happy regardless if i am not able to do well in a contest. Because,I know one thing is sure. Practice is the only way. These are only some local minima's or maxima's in the rating graph, while overall function is monotonically increasing :D Hope it helps