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By n4g4t0, history, 6 months ago, In English

At this point I feel like some higher power simply toys with me, just to see how much effort I can put in despite knowing that I am going to fail, and laughs at the fact that I still don't quit, and that I still have hope that someday things might work out.

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If you feel stuck at a rating level, I would advice you from my experience to solve a lot of 'easier' problems so that you are confident of solving any problem below your rating. I can't help you with the other things in your life, you can always find help, find someone to talk to about those. Keep going. All the best

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    Okay.

    And thank you for taking out the time to write this :)

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      No problem. Remember to stay positive always :)

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        Yep

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          According to my experience, I would recommend you to solve problems at 1400-1700 rating range and don't read editorial for 1 hour. Don't forget that solving problems and get accepted won't make you better but thinking about problems, making observations, training algorithms will improve you.

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What you just described above is called life.

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    Is it? Among all the people I've known, I haven't seen it happening to anyone.

    People either achieve things without much effort, or don't aim high in the first place. Both these classes of people stay happy though. I belong to neither.

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      "People either achieve things without much effort," They do work hard. You just don't know it.

      "or don't aim high in the first place." Why do you care about them? You'll always be happy in your comfort zone, but you'll never grow.

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      Not everyone who seems happy is happy. Many people don’t like to share their problems with others. We may not be aware of the efforts that people put in. And we don’t know that those who ‘don’t aim high’ would be the very same people who would’ve put in a lot of efforts but eventually gave up due to little progress.And maybe they don’t want to let others know about their wasted efforts.

      Be positive and don’t give up.

      Happyyy New Yearrr!!!

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just quit if you don't like doing it anymore

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    The reason I do cp is to prove to myself that I am smarter than the people around me (in my university). I constantly feel a sense of inferiority to a certain set of people in my life. And I hate the feeling. This feeling will go only when I reach a certain milestone in cp. I know it might seem absurd to give this much importance to cp, but there is no other way I can quantify my smartness, and hence no other way to kill that sense of inferiority I feel every day.

    And I agree that cp has been a source of frustration to me, but at the same time it is difficult for me to find happiness in something else, especially by running away like this.

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      try reading Carol dweck's book "Mindset".I think it can help you

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        Sure, I'll try it out. Thanks.

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      "this feeling will go when i reach a certain milestone in cp" this line dude i am feeling the same for the past 1 year and also it do frustate to me too but cant quit

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Relax bro,you give yourself too much pressure.

Hope you will reach your goal one day :)

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Us bro Us. It is happening with me too i am not even able to solve a simple problem and losing in life too. I just laugh it off like nothing happened :) .Maybe next year is gonna be my prime if not will try to do something next year and will start it from the 1st of Jan. Idc about new year.

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    Yep,there is always bad things happening in life,positive attitude is quite important.

    Whatever,good luck next year bro:)

    Everthing everthing is gonna be alright.

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      Thanks bro. I am thinking of starting an entire new life. I am gonna fix my sleep schedule and wake up early and go for a run or will use a skipping rope. Eat Healthy and stop thinking about everything that had happened with me in these past years. Will try to be happy.

      And wishing you the same bro have a happy new year.

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    All the best man!

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These feelings are there because you expect something of yourself, you have a quality that is respectable. Some success which one's self esteem craves is the only to cure to sadness. Some kind words from others are just pain killers, if that

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    Yep, I agree completely.

    And thanks a lot for the first line of your message.

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Time to prove the higher power wrong? Let's get to work. This community is here to uplift you!

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    Yes! Thank you so much for your kind words, genuinely.

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Hi. You found someone else of your kind and that's me.

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A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials.

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A god doesn't set goals, because whatever he wants, instantly he is,
A stone doesn't set goals, because he knows him wanting anything is useless,
Contained within is all of human ambition

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bro thinks he's the main character

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    Bro thinks he has something valueable to add to the discussion and to society as a whole

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Haha, Just watch my rating graph :)

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You are not alone; remember, perseverance is key—keep moving forward with continuous effort.

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One of my favorite esports players, Showmaker, once said:Failure always runs through one's life, and that's life. Isn't overcoming failure the most enjoyable thing in life?fighting~

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life of a typical codeforces user

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It's not always possible to do what we want to do , But it's important to believe in something before you actually do it. Also if I can skip cyan anyone can do any thing.People die before achieving their dreams, don't put being red in those dreams.

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    Yeah, you're right. And no, being red isn't and will never be my dream. I know I won't ever be able to achieve that.

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      Maybe you just lack resolve ,if i skip a single in. Year ,then too,it will take hardly 5 years to reach red

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Some people are destined to be losers,nothing wrong with this.This is not something to be ashamed of.You should stop comparing yourself to others

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Look at my rating graph, it's miserable for the most part... and then eventually I got better. It's hard to predict how you're going to improve. Keep solving challenging problems, and, most importantly, enjoy solving problems, just for the sake of it.

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Success in CP and Life are two altogether different things. CP will be a very small part of your overall life goals and expectations. Don't mix the two. Success in CP does not guarantee success in Life. So keep positive attitude always

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impressive and beautiful blog, same feelings. I read this blog from time to time

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See here. Look at my graph. I am struggling in CP just like you, and I can fully relate to you, and say that life can be really hard sometimes. At some point, it just feels like you have reached nowhere even after so much struggle, especially after watching others go ahead of you even if they haven't worked as hard.

But remember this okay? Me and you, are the people who really have the guts to challenge our destiny. If someone like god has written my destiny, I'm gonna make sure I write my own. I'm gonna make sure that no matter whatever comes in life, I will only emerge tougher, and one day will definitely come, when the others will look up at me. For others, life is only easier, and after some time, you will become bored if given such an easy life. Go forward and never look back, because always remember: the world isn't always as it looks. There are people who still wake up everyday with fire in their hearts even after sleeping crying the night before. The dawn will come again, and no matter what, we will bring the dawn after battling the night. It is due to people like you and me that others learn, and those who struggle get their inspiration to do so. So never look down upon yourself, and feel proud that you are one of the few in the world who have refused to give up their dreams, merely because destiny says it, and one of those few who look up at the stars and challenge the universe to bring upon them hell, because they know they're gonna break through.

Trust me my friend, the dawn will come, and we will smile again. No matter what.

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    Thank you man, thank you so much for writing this. Reading this did give me a different way of looking at things. I will read this from time to time. Thank you.

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    wow

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Bro, you will reach a good position no worries.

Don't think a lot but just do more and more problems as you mentioned it is giving you a happiness.

Better you can check my profile :P

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    Thanks for the positivity, I really appreciate it.

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Amidst life's abyss, where despair seems relentless, remember: within the shadows, breakthroughs unfold, and opportunities quietly whisper. Embrace the depths, for it is there that resilience sharpens, and the alchemy of transformation unfolds. Your journey, though challenging, is a prelude to an extraordinary symphony. May your efforts, seemingly futile, be the silent overture to an encore of triumph. Persevere with unwavering hope, for even at rock-bottom, the seeds of resilience sprout into the flowers of opportunity. May your codes cleansed from bugs.