I have been doing cp for 2 years . I admit that I have not pushed me harder. But right now when I have realized that I should have , I am blank. Basically I am facing stuck situation and disbelief in me what I have made over time. But I want to bounce back harder. But somewhere in me I cannot believe that I can do.
Does anybody face these , but later bounced back to some extent ? More generally , what do you think that what mindset or what made you to keep doing even after you are seeing that you are a Failure ?
What do you think what made you to be better from a very low situation ?
Give up.
You have not solved enough easy problems rated <= 1400 and that is why you are feeling so demotivated and have hit a low in life. The best way to regain that motivation would be to solve 10 problems rated 1300-1400 before you go to sleep today. You are going to slay today's contest.
PS: It is necessary to practise easy problems too. When you solve around 50 to 60 problems you will see that there is a limited set of techniques which you need to apply to solve such questions, and rarely something out of the box shows up.
No retreat, no surrender.
I dropped doing CP for several months several times, every time when I trained but failed to progress any further. And every time the problem I could not solve looked absolutely unbearable. In the end I just approached it face-on: I took an ICPC semifinal or smth similar, where correct solutions were not available, and decided I will not attempt to solve any other problems until I solve each problem from it (and some were clearly over my level). I was solving on Kattis, so there was no way I could see the correct solutions or see test cases. It took me something like a month, and this is how I started believing in myself and realized that any problem can be somehow solved, only thing it takes is practice, and it might take a while as I practice only by solving online CF rounds...
I actually was in the same situation like half an year ago, and competing wasn't being fun for me anymore. But then time passed, I figured I would try again, and I'm having a blast. My problem was that I was always practicing hard problems that would take me a lot of time to solve, and so I was always frustrated.
My advice is this: whenever you find that a problem took you a lot of time to solve and it was very difficult, reward yourself by doing some easy problems. This way, you'll trick your brain to associate solving difficult problems with rewarding yourself, and easy problems with the actual reward. Sweet endorphins all around.
Wait for new year and you will get any rank you want.