I don't know how to express my own self, after being trying to get around with problem solving for almost a year I still feel like I'm stuck at the same place. I can't think of new approaches when the problem is little hard. I know i should've learned DSA, I don't know i've tried almost like hell to get these things into my f**king brain.

I know the difference between sad and depressed, I'm neither sad or depressed, I'm annoyed by my brain. I can't see myself further, but i'm still not giving up , trying to get around with every contest as possible, trying to up solve problems that i couldn't solve while contest and understanding nothing.